Do you feel like I do?

Roughing it

Sometimes I just want to die. I hate being sick. I hate being yelled at. I hate being told what to do all the time. I hate arguing and fighting. I hate being sensitive. I wanna become a man. I just wanna move away. From from anyone I know. Away from drugs, and sadness, and bad memories. Just shayla and I. We can make it and I know we can. We’d just have to tough it out and we’d have to do it together. No giving up. No coming back. Maybe for a visit but never to stay. I just want to be alone with my perfect wife and just live our lives. Become closer and better people. With every obstacle and argument’s end, become closer to shayla and learn more and more about her. Find things out the hard way but be proud in the end. I just want to go. I have no friends to leave behind. Ill always have family in the end. And ill always have my own family. Just shayla and I. My own little piece of heaven. The only thing that can make me happy. I just want us to be happy. I want it so bad. And I just don’t think we can be happy around here. Anywhere close to here. I want us to just move far far away. Like a fairytail or some shit idk.

Roughing it

Sometimes I just want to die. I hate being sick. I hate being yelled at. I hate being told what to do all the time. I hate arguing and fighting. I just wanna move away. From from anyone I know. Away from drugs, and sadness, and bad memories. Just shayla and I. We can make it and I know we can. We’d just have to tough it out and we’d have to do it together. No giving up. No coming back. Maybe for a visit but never to stay. I just want to be alone with my perfect wife and just live our lives. Become closer and better people. With every obstacle and argument’s end, become closer to shayla and learn more and more about her. Find things out the hard way but be proud in the end. I just want to go. I have no friends to leave behind. Ill always have family in the end. And ill always have my own family. Just shayla and I. My own little piece of heaven. The only thing that can make me happy. I just want us to be happy. I want it so bad. And I just don’t think we can be happy around here. Anywhere close to here. I want us to just move far far away. Like a fairytail or some shit idk.

Im sick of being afraid of everything. I hate it. Afraid being alone, of being upseting people. I can’t stand this shit.